This is Awkward.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm… Hey. I’ve been gone a while. Yep… Maybe a little longer than a while. However, I don’t have enough viewers on this blog to really “apologize,” so I’ll just say that college has been on my time table and I procrastinated on the writing, however, as I think I’ve written before, excuses are stupid, I’m not making an excuse, I didn’t write for this blog, and the only reason is that well… I didn’t, I probably made some excuses, I’ll write another day about hypocrisy. Now that I’m back, I think this post will just be a combination of whatever I can think about, I haven’t planned out any more than the introduction that you just read. Let’s see if I still got it.

Let’s start with awkwardness. I actually don’t feel awkward very often unless I make a situation awkward on purpose for the sake of humor, but it’s usually funny. Awkwardness is a feeling that can be described as an atmosphere that makes it difficult to do something: speaking, moving, heck, even breathing if the situation is awkward enough. I believe that awkwardness can be a positive and negative thing, like most things in the universe. Positive, let’s say you’re having a conversation with a buddy and things get heated. Let’s say someone says something and it hurts the other. This awkwardness that could occur that prevents either of you from speaking may make it so instead of one or both of you getting livid, you guys just skip the anger and become sad. Now, this situation is in no way positive, please don’t just say hurtful things to others when conversations get heated, don’t “get them before they get you.” You’re stronger than that. Anyways, anger makes things quite a lot worse, that awkwardness let your neurotransmitters settle down so you could skip the explosion that would have made everything worse.

Negatively, Awkwardness can prevent you from saying something you know you should say. One thing might happen, you might hear something, you might see something, and you may not do the thing that you need to do. Let’s use another made-up example. This time you have a friend, but this friend is toxic, and you’ve realized this, but they always act energetic, but at the end of the day, they aren’t helping you but harming you, for whatever reason. You go to tell this friend, “I can’t vibe with your energy anymore because of [whatever the reason may be], I won’t be talking to you much anymore…” and however you wanna end the statement. But before you say it to them they catch on (in order to procrastinate people will say things like, “I have to tell you something,” or something of the sorts), and they say something really nice to you, and you pause, you get awkward. This awkwardness lets you doubt yourself as most people do in this situation, and well, you don’t say anything.

I can’t really tell you exactly what I do to not ever get awkward if that’s something you want… well, at least no in one paragraph or one post, that’s… long. In general, however, if you don’t react to things, if you don’t expect anything, no matter what happens, or what is said in a situation, you won’t be affected by it in order to “be awkward.” as for the other people involved, if you don’t make it awkward, it’s not going to be awkward. As the saying goes, “it’s only awkward if you make it awkward.”

That’s five paragraphs, but I’ll throw in another one or two, let’s elaborate on what I talked about earlier: “get them before they get you.” This is an extraordinarily toxic mindset. Do not hold this. You will ruin your relationships, and it will hurt both you through either self-hatred or feeling bad, and the other party(ies) involved. Remember that no one but no one can hurt you, or make you feel bad, or make you angry, or put you in mental pain without your permission. No one will ever “get you” as long as you do not make yourself a person that can be got. And as someone who followed this line of thinking, as someone who not only became a person that could not be got but got other people, don’t hurt others either, it, again, will make the other party(ies) feel bad, and you will either feel bad later or that negative karma will catch up to you, and you will feel bad because of something else.

We’ll leave it at that. Honestly, I’m surprised that the awkwardness comments lasted so long, but I guess it fits the post, that was the original idea anyway, then I thought I’ll just write whatever comes to mind, and I wanted to elaborate on the getting other people thing as I was writing, so that happened. Now, as we conclude this post, I won’t make promises, have a great time until the next time I write for you to read, peace.