The Act

Acting, it's one of those so called dream careers, it isn't a normal 9-5 job, it doesn't require college, just a few acting classes. The thing that's interesting about this job though is the fact that, really, everyone does it. There are a lot of actors you will meet in your life and you will also be one of them. That is the first part of the writing, this is going to be a random thoughts writing, or as my homie calls it a "thought dump". As stated first off is life's acting and what problems it causes, second will be about dealing and overcoming depression, and the last one we'll find out when we get there. So what do I mean by acting? Am I gonna go on another 5 pages about fake friends, well no, that's not exactly what I mean when I refer to acting. What I'm referring to as "acting" is when you are in front of people, you aren't completely yourself. That doesn't mean your personality has to turn 180 degrees and you are a completely different person, but what happens is that in front of people we want to show energy show them our good side, our good traits. For some people they're really calm and show how chill they are, and others, like me, are very very energetic and happy. When we do this at work, at school, in public, maybe even at home, what happens is that the good traits you were trying to show off slowly becomes a mask when you start talking to a person repetitively. This itself isn't a problem, being the best you in front of people seems great, and is great always be you because you are the best in front of people, but the problem with this mask is that once you run into a real problem in your life, you can't afford to show cracks in your mask, you won't tell anyone about anything and you will start bottling things up and that's not good. How I came across this topic actually was, I sent one of my homies from school a message on snapchat, he replied, and in a few messages he took off the mask I always saw him in, he told me an issue he was having, and I told him that it probably hurts, you can't tell anyone because you don't want people to see your weaknesses. So thanks for the topic bro you know who you are. Anyways, back to the topic, this mask is dangerous, talk to people that's great, but make friends, a mistake I made is that I talk to everyone but haven't officially met someone I can trust and talk to whenever I want about whatever I want. So I keep a mask on and when something real happens and you have no one to tell... let's just say you don't want it to happen, make some trusted friends, get a squad that's tight, it'll help you in all aspects of life. Now this topic I won't go to in depth with because I want to write a whole thing about this, this being depression. I looked through my old writings and was surprised about how little I wrote about dealing with sadness. Of course sadness and depression isn't the same thing. What depression is, is a chemical in the brain that causes some, not so good thoughts. Depression is a touchy subject, even for me I personally had minor depression in middle school, but luckily I didn't have a big issue, it was minor and now I'm fine. But I've felt the feeling of waking up and asking yourself why you did, and much more I'll touch on in the official writing. Anyways let's get to the point, and talk about good ways to overcome this and beat depression. For this writing I'm gonna speak from my heart and brain, and for the official writing I'll do a little more research. What I can say would help a lot to counteract the extreme sadness of depression, would obviously be, happiness, and a lot of it at that. So how exactly do you achieve that happiness in such a bad mental state? Well people with depression usually feel lazy, don't want to do anything, their energy is negative. The first step would be to push that away, be strong and go do something you love, go play that video-game you're good at, go juggle a soccer ball 200 times in your yard. Just do something you love to do, it's hard but it's like doing homework, no one wants to do it, but you have to get up and do it at some-point, and the best "time" to do anything is now. The second one would relate to the first paragraph of last week, find someone to talk to, this is so important I can't stress this enough, find someone you trust and consistently talk to them about this, you need to get it out of your system and have someone help you with it. It's fine if that someone is a therapist, the occupation exists for a reason. So the third topic, what's it gonna be? I honestly don't know what to write about here I've been thinking about it for the whole day, I had one and forgot. There's a good chance I'm just overthinking it. Hmm... "good chance I'm overthinking it." Overthinking! Let's make a short thing on overthinking, because I feel this can be expanded on as well. Let's address one reason why I feel people do over-think. Self-doubt. When you're taking a test, or doing something important that you don't want to mess up, you will start to overthink things just to get that perfect solution and outcome, right? It happens to me and this boat is big enough to fit the entire world so it can't just be me, I hope. So if you are doing something important that you just can't mess up because second chances don't exist, kidding, then stop doubting yourself. You can and will do it, you will ace it, you got this, believe in you. There's no harm in self flattering yourself, just don't tell other people, then you're cocky. That will do it for tonight, I actually wrote this in a good time so that's good. I do feel like everything in this writing can be expanded on, and I will in the future write a whole writing on depression, that will probably be titled depression. With that said don't wear a mask all the time, find some people you can say are cast mates in your movie of life, if you are depressed I hope you start doing things to ensure your happiness, and of course trust yourself, overthinking leads to wrong solutions. With all of that said this writing will hopefully help someone out, and I will see you next week, peace. Original

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